Hello everyone. I am sorry for not updating in a long time. Unfortunately things have not been going well, and I have not really been online a lot lately. My life has pretty much come to a screaching hault. I have been dealing with a lot of issues since October of 2013, and things have only gotten worse. I just recently found out that I have to have spinal surgery. I curently am having a lot of trouble walking, and I am in a great deal of pain. I was told that I have to have a Spinal Fusion done. I am sorry but I will not be on as much. I know I was not on that much to begin with, but unfortunately that will continue. I am sorry, but the surgery is not a small one, and will be a 4 Hour surgery, and a 3 month recovery time. I miss all of you dearly, and I am sorry. I don't admit it often, especially openly like this, but I am scared. I am terrified about having this surgery. I have tried everything to try to help myself get better, but unfortunately nothing I did worked. And I found out as to why last week. Apparently the disk in my spine (disk L-5 / S-1) is severly damaged beyond repair. According to the doctor I have 'A massive hole/tear' in the disk and the disk isn't holding any fluid what so ever. So unfortunately in order for me to move forward with my life and in order for me to really be able to walk normally again I have to have this done. They will be putting metal rods, screws, and a metal spacer into my spine. My sister told me I will be 'The Bionic Woman' LOL. They will also have to do a bone graph to help premote new healthy bone growth. Like I said before; I don't admit to being scared often, but I am seriously terrified about having this surgery done. I should be having the sugery some time within the next 2-4 weeks.
Wish me luck.....Again I am sorry.
Miss you all sooooo much